Ariana Grande has finally revealed the emotional trauma she suffered after the Manchester Bombing in 2017, which caused the death of her fans.
Speaking in new feature with British Vogue, 2017 was the year that “changed everything” for her. She had just finished her first of two shows in Manchester for her Dangerous Woman concert tour, when a suicide bomber detonated an explosive as people were exiting, killing 22 people and himself and injuring hundreds.
Grande cancelled her shows, mourned the death of her fans, and alter co-organized the One Love Manchester benefit concert a week later and returned to her tour in tribute to her late fans.
Now, more than a year later, the Grammy nominee who is set to drop her fourth studio album, Sweetener, has spoken up about her personal experiences after that bombing: she suffered a post-traumatic stress disorder and is somewhat reluctant to talk about herself considering the fact that her fans have also suffered.
“I hate…yeah…admitting it but it very much is,” she told British Vogue after the interviewer asked if the dizziness and anxiety Grande faced when she got home were signs of PTSD. “That’s what everyone was telling me. It’s hard to talk about because so many people have suffered such severe, tremendous loss. But, yeah, it’s a real thing. I know those families and my fans, and everyone there experienced a tremendous amount of it as well.”
“Time is the biggest thing,” she continued. “I feel like I shouldn’t even be talking about my own experience—like I shouldn’t even say anything. I don’t think I’ll ever know how to talk about it and not cry. I think a lot of people have anxiety, especially right now, My anxiety has anxiety. No. I’ve always had anxiety. I’ve never really spoken about it because I thought everyone had it, but when I got home from tour it was the most severe I think it’s ever been.”
To cope, she buried herself under work, is working on her album. “Everybody thought I was crazy when I got home and wanted to hit the ground running. I was in the studio the next day,” she said. “I am a workaholic.”