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Porn Star August Ames Left Suicide Note Before Killing Herself

Porn Star August Ames Left Suicide Note Before Killing Herself

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Porn star August Ames left a suicide note before taking her own life in a public park. She died on December 6 after committing suicide by hanging, Her body was found at 3:45 A.M. in a public park 20 minutes from her home in Camarillo.

The Ventura County Medical Examiner tells The Blast that the note was discovered in August’s car. She allegedly apologized for killing herself.

A few days before her tragic death, August tweeted, “whichever (lady) performer is replacing me tomorrow for @EroticaXNews , you’re shooting with a guy who has shot gay porn, just to let cha know. BS is all I can say Do agents really not care about who they’re representing? #ladirect I do my homework for my body.” She later received backlash from porn community and internet users who accused her of being homophobic.

Defending herself, she wrote on Monday, December 4, “I don’t have anything to apologize for! Apologizing for taking extra steps to ensue that my body stays safe? F**k you guys attacking me when none of my intentions were malicious. I f**king love the gay community! What the f**k ever! I CHOOSE who I have inside my body. No hate.”

On September 13, less than two months before her death, she appeared on the Holly Randall Unfiltered podcast for a wide-ranging hour-long interview. She revealed that she’d experienced “a lot of sexual molestation” when she was growing up, but said the perpetrator was not her father.

She said the trauma of the abuse was compounded because she was not believed when she raised the alarm. “It was just awful. It’s still recent where I have to keep myself occupied or else I start thinking about all that s*** and then I fall into a depression.

“I try to do therapy. I hate that word. I hate therapy.”

She said that one of the reasons she disliked therapy is because therapists would judge her for her profession.

“I would get in contact with some people and then I would feel badly because they’d be like ‘what’s your profession and I’d be like ‘oh, I’m in the adult industry’ and then I’d feel like they’re like ‘oh, that’s the whole reason that you are the way you are’ and then I’d get turned off.”

She touched on the use and abuse of drugs during the hour-long chat, revealing that when she was 15, the father of a child she was babysitting offered her cocaine if she would strip naked.

She said she’d used drugs to escape her issues, saying: “I don’t drink alcohol anymore. When I would drink, I’d black out every time. I used to smoke a lot of weed too, I used to be a big stoner but I’ve cut that out too. I just drink water now.”

Ames added that she was using medication to deal with bipolar disorder, depression and multiple personality disorder.

“It was so hard when I wasn’t on any medication when I’d just flip, you know? It was crippling.”

Towards the end of the podcast, she said that when she’s feeling low and depressed, she goes through her old photos to look for a happy selfie to post on Instagram to her followers.

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